I never really know what to put in these sections.
"Hi, I'm Cat, and my mood changes a lot and rather drastically. I love spending time with people who are awesome and I think that generally guys make better friends than girls but I seem to be incapable of having a friendship with a guy that doesn't end up with one of us liking the other and getting hurt, or something. Generally him, to be honest. I get pissed off when people say "oh, someone likes you? How /horrible/ for you." Because tbh, I know it's flattering and I know it's good, but there's a limit. I would love it if a couple of people liked me and I flirted with a couple of people and nothing happened with it because we never /wanted/ something to happen with it. But no. Instead, I get to be good friends with guys and then it all changes. Take Daniel for example. Dan. My mbs. We were close, but now we're not. Apparently I made him think that he was something he wasn't and fucked him up completely. That is not good. I don't know how I did that. But now he talks to me and makes me feel bad about myself and whatnot. But, yano what? Fuck it. I appear to be incapable of having close friends who are male. So I guess I'll have to learn to ignore obvious things, or not have them. That's just one of those things. Just like a nose you don't like; something you complain about from time to time and deal with the rest of the time
"However, there are some seriously awesome people in the world and I intend to find several of them during my life. I know that they might have made mistakes and hurt people - but they are only human. Therefore, I think I ahve found (or rather, been introduced to) a brand new one. And for that, screw it. Why should I feel so crap because someone else "let" (their word) themself like me? So...let's go for this whole "just fucking deal with it" outlook. It's a good outlook. Just like "everything happens for a reason" is for me. It annoys me SO much when people just say "no." It's fair enough when, like Kati, you say "well, I don't agree cause I don't like the idea of fate..." etc. But just "no, you're wrong" is one of the worst things ever. It's an opinion. It's never wrong unless it's something like "The holocaust never happened" (Hello Nick Griffin). So there we go.
"Talk to me to get to know me properly. Big love.x"
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