Alright, you.

1. I can't believe you. He is a good person and deserves the best. Not some little bitch fucking him around. He's kind, considerate, gentle, and funny as hell. Now stop fucking him around. If you're in love with the guy you've been slagging off for about a month, then go back to him. Just do not DARE fuck him around THEN go back to your dickwad of a boyfriend. Without even having the decency to tell him? Urgh. Grow a pair you little shit.

2. So times are hard? Do something about it. Don't just sit at your computer moaning to me about it. It's /so/ much easier if you're straight with people. I learnt that yesterday. Cause of you. You're a great person, you're not going to read this, but you're a great person. So, once again, grow a pair and get off your arse. You've got so much to give. Go give it.

3. You? you make me angry. without being there. you make me angry because i went somewhere i once spent time with you. that's saying something. god i'm glad you're gone.

4. I have had such an awesome time recently. I've missed you. I love you.

5. You scare me. What if, what if what if ... but I trust you. I genuinely love you. Or I wouldn't be so fucking scared. (L)

I've been writing this post for ages, so will now just post it. :) (L)

I remember.

Feeling the past moving in

letting a new day begin

hold to the time that you know

you don't have to move on to let go

Add to the memory you keep

remember when you fall asleep

hold to the love that you know

you don't have to give up to let go

Remember turning on the night

and moving through the morning light

remember how it was with you

remember how you pulled me through

I remember [x8]

Feeling the past moving in

letting a new day begin

hold to the time that you know

you don't have to move on to let go

add to the memory you keep

remember when you fall asleep

hold to the love that you know

you don't have to give up to let go

remember how it was with you

remember how you pulled me through

I remember

Feeling the past moving in

letting a new day begin

hold to the time that you know

you don't have to move on to let go

add to the memory you keep

remember when you fall asleep

hold to the love that you know

you don't have to give up to let go

Remember turning on the the night

and moving through the morning light

remember how it was with you

remember how you pulled me through

I remember [x8]

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=XRj91VZG4Dw&feature=player_embedded

I feel like you're cutting me out because you spoke about his reaction to something I haven't seen.

But that's your choice. Just don't be angry at me if anything similar happens...please?

I relaxed today, because of something I was worried about not happening. It made me feel so much better. Alec and Charli were the best. I am so glad to have them. So so glad. They're just brilliant. Alec is reliable and promised to be there and was, just by giving me a hug at the right time...fortunately I didn't need any more than that. And Charli...I was with her in lesson when I found out that it was all ok and she was liek...geeeenius. Then I gave Amy Cross a random hug and promised her a bj...hahha. I love Amy Cross. I love college. I am so so glad I went to Lewes. I wonder if I would have met Charli some other way if I hadn't. She's awesome.

After college I went to Tara's house and it is the most awesome place on the planet. There are random signs and stuff all over the place. It's one of the most relaxed places ever. Ever ever. So awesome. She made me a cheese toasty, hot chocolate (which was AMAZING), and we had raspberries with it. I tried putting a raspberry in my cheese toasty - it wasn't nice :P She's such an awesome person it's untrue.

After that I went back home for a bit before riding. I loose schooled Buzz with Emma and Ray - Ray for about 5 minutes teaching us how to do it then Emma helping me finish. Buzz ended up very tired, as did I - Emma and I were charging around with Buzz. It was good fun, I gotta say - and so satisfying when he did what we were aiming for.

I am so tired now, though. So so so tired. I might go to bed (even though it's 9) ... Maybe watch Pride and Prejudice, cause I really need to read that. Or see it. Or at least know what the hell happens. Damn I dislike it.

Oh well; hasta luego. x