As you have obviously noticed I've been cutting myself off from the people I don't like. That's a lot of people. The closest people I've had to me for a long time have been you and Jack. Even though we haven't been close recently, it's weird not saying "oh my best friend.."; even though I know you're still there it feels like you're more distant. make sense? Probably because it is.
Currently, I am having a conversation on e-mail with Millie, who I have been dodgy friends with for a while. She can be good but she can be so bad. By the end of the friendship I had to force myself into the right mood to see her or I would end up disliking the time with her.
Not a good person to spend time with. The problem is that I can't remember how annyoign she was.
Urrrgh.
I don't know.
I am closing myself off
I am doing it for reasons which are important to me: my happiness; my wellbeing; Jack.
I now have Jack and aquaintances.
THERE IS TOO MUCH HAPPENING
My dad just came in my room and told me that I need to talk to my mum. Fine. Then he said "give the old bat a slap" as he left. SHE IS MY MOTHER. YES SHE ANNOYS ME BUT SHE IS STILL MY FUCKING MOTHER.
What's more, before -you- say anything, I cannot mention that to my father because i have tried and it has been deemed useless.
That made me unhappy. Rather unhappy.
It's too much change.
Talking to Seona about horses. Weird.
Cutting out people I don't like. Less.
I am not used to having so few places to turn to and so few people just with me, spending time with me. Even when I didn't see people much I spent time talking to them, or something.
Moodchangemeansbye<3
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